Sometimes when I'm having a particularly hard time, I write about my feelings.. Being an exchange student entitles one to high emotions. All the new people, places, routines, the thought of goodbyes (maybe even forever) looming in the distance. It's all things I know well. I make it seem that all the people I've met this year have been amazing, and I will admit that more than half of them have been. But in life isn't all smiles, there are hard times. There are people who you simply just don't belong with, and that's something that I've always known. But being away in a different country has really taught me the complexity of it all. Yes, there will be people that hurt you, and everyone who you'll probably ever meet will tell you to just forget about them. But is it really that easy to forget? Is the human mind really meant to forget? I've learned many things about myself, but lately the most important thing I've learned is how my mind works. I really take everything in my life to the heart, even the bad. Some may tell you to focus on only the positive things that are happening, but for me it doesn't work that way. Something in the back of my head always tells me to hold on, even to the negative. As much as I try, I cannot erase the challenges. They are there, taunting me and waiting for my next move.. So my dear readers, let me ask you this: Are we meant to forget all the times we've felt homesick, alone, tired? Where would we be if we hadn't felt the longing for home or some other comfort? We're not perfect; so why do our days have to be perfect as well?
It's time to let go of the doubts that you're not living everyday to the fullest just because you didn't have the best day. So here I am, letting go. Maybe you should, too. We are here, we are breathing, there's a world to explore and we have the feet to take us there. As the summer draws closer, the need for simplicity becomes greater. Here's a little hello from the simpler side of me; happy and letting go.
(for those of you want to hear about my exchange adventures, please stay tuned.. I promise a post is coming soon!)
xoxo
